What if I had a whole entire soliloquy to eloquently deliver and God bid me be silent?  Should I doubt Him and preach my own sermon forgetting the only Words worth saying?  It was never me that was going to win this fight. My job is to stand against the overwhelming odds in direct defiance of the scary influences that believe they rule this world.  I cannot continue to become better in hopes of over coming the enemies set against me.  That is either misunderstanding of the Gospel or direct disobedience to God.  If I am anxious for the job that I believe He has set before me then I am already in danger, because I have substituted my own power, authority and talents as adequate to completing the supernatural.  I am not God, nor will I ever be able to do that which He has planned for me.  What I am capable of is prayer, obedience, learning and surrender.  I am a vessel, nothing more.

Being a vehicle for fulfillment of God’s will has to be enough and we must ask ourselves what manner of deception is necessary to making us think otherwise?  Why is it so difficult for a man or woman to accept the fact that there is a God who created everything, rules over everything and loves everyone so much so that He provided a 100% effective method of avoiding the pain of death, slavery to wantonness and eternal separation from those whom we love?

I understand that humanity must come up with alternate explanations for our origin in order to free us from having to of surrender to Absolute Truth, belief and service to a rightful King.  I don’t see that as harder than convincing ourselves we started as apes with no evidence, that we have no purpose, this life is all we’ve got or that somehow we can become gods after some enlightenment graduation ceremony.  To me those alternatives are truly stretching the limits of imagination.  Perhaps they believe that I am fooling myself into following God so that I can save myself from the despair of this dismal ending to which they have committed.  In that event I would ask if we are trying to provide ourselves a collective hallucination resulting in limited bliss and avoidance reality, why then are we not the ones taking drugs by the tons, looking for one more drink, episode, thrill or dollar.  Or why then does this hallucination to which you believe that we have convinced ourselves require that we must suffer the abuses of humanity while loving, forgiving and praying for them as they seek our demise?  Why do committed Christians become better people, right before our noses, even though they should somehow become contorted by some false reality?  The simple truth is the simple truth.  Even Occam agreed.

God is Alive and that is a truly frightening concept, because He Knows everything that we have done and will do.  I cannot escape His review, nor do I wish to, I simply wish to please Him and bring Glory to His Name, because He deserves it.  I love you and pray that You will hear His voice speaking in your heart so that you too may know the Truth that is God.  My work does not depend on me for I have already done all that He requires of me in believing, trusting, surrendering and walking with Him.  He may choose to do great things using me as a vehicle for His will.  I assure you that it will be a greater surprise to me than anyone.  I do not know God’s will for my life, but I pray that it is fulfilled and that I volunteer to every step in patience and in love.  To me this is the best life that could every be lived with an end that surpasses anyone’s imagination, including my own.

Praise God in infinite understanding and glory.  Jesus Christ took away the sins of the world, won’t you step into the light of freedom with me?  I pray that peace for you, in Jesus’ Holy Name.