The weight of my own unrepentant sin is more than I can bear.  Having a relationship with Christ and continuing to sin is almost as impossible as overcoming this world without Him.  This is the purification factory, the place where the dross must be removed in advance of spending ten thousand light years with a Holy God.  None of my good deeds matters a hill of beans if those works are balanced by an unrighteous lifestyle.  None of us is perfect, but harboring sin when it was defeated by Christ is abetting the enemy of God.  Lord I have done nothing to deserve your grace, nothing to remove myself from slavery to sin and nothing to conform to Your likeness through sanctification.  Must I now fail those Blessings by continuing to condone, allow, pursue or co-habitate with the very sin from which You set me free?  Oh that I were finished this life and this sinful flesh was removed from me.

I do not belong to myself, nor this world, nor defeated enemies and principalities.  I belong to God Almighty.  I cannot therefore of my own accord determine to present my body which does not belong to me as sacrifice to other pursuits, desires or ambitions.  That action constitutes unfaithful, adulterous behavior.  I must not just avoid it but never take one toe step toward an action that smells, resembles or aligns itself with such travesty.  My mind shall only be cleansed by the blood of Christ, the Mind of Christ and the Power of the Holy Spirit in His capacity to rid me of the influences of this sinful world and ungodly minions.  I am no great man, but satan would have believe such nonsense leading to arrogance, pride, loss of wisdom, preparedness and departure from my assigned post.  I am a foot soldier in the Army of God.  An army of princes and priests to bring healing, hope and faith to this world awaiting God’s relief.  I am a field medic taking care of the battlefield wounded until they may be delivered to the Surgeon of Truth and Reconfiguration.

This is not my place yet I continue to live out this life in this foreign land as if I were meant to do something good.  A representative of Christ.  A man with a smidgen of God, dependent upon God, serving God in His purposes and planning.  There is nothing else for me here but this.  For this is a story of journey preparation.  A tale of training for a greater event.  An event so grand, so worthy, so priceless that to all that view me I look foolish running up the biggest hill backwards in the heat of the day.  I am preparing to kneel at the footsteps of God and that requires everything I’ve got, for second best will just never work for me.  How about you?

Praise Him in His Infinite Glory, Mercy and Strength.  The Lord God by the name of Jesus Christ the King.