Lord, how is it that I pick things up so quickly but rarely if ever seem to learn them?  How can a man be faced with unavoidable evidence that a system does not work yet remain dependent upon the hope that this scientifically disproved experiment will somehow rectify?  I am sorry for the frustration I cause Your Spirit, in grief, as I continue to cling to those things in my life that I emphatically know are desperate attempts in failure to either do the wrong thing or disobey the correct way You have provided.  It is that simple, yet so many claim the excuses of ambiguity, negligence, complication or obscurity.  Your Word is clear, simple, accurate, undeniable and frankly it works when applied to the human experiment.  I cannot claim any of these excuses because I have sufficient knowledge of Your Word to see my rebellious behavior and the areas where I wish to excuse away my actions.

Is that why men will not learn Your Word?

I am not struggling so much anymore, with measuring a mens rea of each man.  It is not my job to guess, predict, control or attempt to intuit any persons motivations, judgment is Yours and Yours alone.  It is so simple to match up everything that my senses define with the Truth in Your Word to see if they are consistent with what You want for us.  The difficulty for us has always been not then using that information to construct ritual to imprison those around us based upon there inability to adhere to Biblical construct.  Your Word shows me the error of “our” ways and the law provides a mirror by which to reflect upon my life choices.  I see so many that loathe themselves Lord.  It breaks my heart that they cannot leave that judgment up to the Just and Loving God.  The enemy ridicules them initially, then just sits back and laughs as they torture, brow bead and chastise themselves, in effect doing his work for him.  I beg you to open their eyes to their affiliation to You Father.  So that they can see that small piece inside themselves of the Majesty that created them.  Free them from the burden of self-judgment.

Father, I don’t know how to pray for things that seem impossible.  Give me Your boundless understanding.  Your Word declares that things are not impossible to those who believe.  I see this world breaking down, like trabecular bone, cell digenesis or machinery approaching obsolescence, let me not suffer from the apathy and helplessness that vision offers.  Let me reach more people than I am personally capable, surpassing my own capacity to declare Your Gospel in hopeful reliance upon Your Promises.  Give me Spirit’s ability to reach those who would flee Your coming judgment.  Make me a useful tool for Your Glory, free me from the dependence upon my own understanding.  For I was meant for Your Good and Achievable Glory in this life and the next.  Thank God I have been set free.  Praise You Father, we await Your Awesome, Expected and Imminent Appearing in Glory.  Amen.