I have been thinking of the charades that we all put on to protect our weaknesses.  Rather than facing our fears and cleaning out old wounds we develop new wounds, or callouses to protect the indefensible.  Where pride lingers often insecurity lay not too deep below the surface hiding, protected by false bravado and gifted by attention.  Many times I want to cry but the straw man having no emotion feels no need of sadness, love, pain or delight, he simply is, concealing the sensitivity of reality, isolated, safe and dry.  I see many determine that they hold the key to storytelling, judgment and faith.  Nothing outside their understanding can possibly be pleasing to God, so they denounce every gift external to their sense of righteousness.  All this done to conceal the wicked nature of their own sinful breast, a man seated inside who condemns the world and in so doing pronounces himself sane, sanctified and safe.

This world is lost not because it cannot see the truth but because it does everything possible to hide from the painful, soul-shaking reality of the truth.  That truth that we have no power, authority, ingenuity or possession capable of setting us free.  That all power and authority is external to us, stripped down we are shameful, naked, cold, tired and helpless.  Daily convincing ourselves that if we can get a certain amount of food, dollars, beer, attention or sex that we will have conquered the reality we seek to cage eternally.  This masquerade is not life but killing time waiting for the inevitable death that faces all men.  There is not one person I have met that doesn’t have something to protect, hide, shield, conceal or just plain ignore, hoping that if the knowledge remains their own that somehow it all becomes nil.  That somehow the nothing that became everything will suddenly return them to a zero status freed of history, shame and guilt, eternally void.

I am a sinner, I am not proud of it but that remains the truth,no matter how much I wish it were not.  I can dress myself up, and recreate my character in altered geographies, jobs, relationships and education levels but a sinner I remain.  That is until I met Christ, until he set me free from my charade and slavery to unrighteousness.  Now I don’t have to hide the weaknesses, wounds and shame, they are simply taken away by the Spirit of God Living inside of me, cleaning me from the inside out.  I am not afraid of my emotions, anger, fear, sadness, loneliness and shame are all indicators of where I stand in my daily walk with the Lord.  Just like the law they provide a mirror, telling me each day, the point upon the path where I currently reside.  They give me something to pray about, something to ask God for, and something to remind me of my humanity, but my own feelings are not something from which I should run.  They are assisting in my guidance, just as my conscience tells me what I know to be right and wrong.  They are ropes strung along the path to keep me straight even in times of darkness and doubt.  I may feel lost at times, but I “Know” that God is there and will never leave or forsake me.

Today I see men playing with fire, trying desperately to attempt something of which history will speak well of them.  I have to ask, if I fail though I gave it my all and reached my end, but at my last moment I unlocked the prison door for someone else or left example that allowed them to find Christ and be set free, was my effort a waste?  Let us even say that no one else saw a single moment of victory before I lay there perishing, my life to them, apparently invalid.  What then should I feel about myself?  Should I remember their perception or God’s Truth?  A man can only serve one authority, the struggle lay in the choice as to who will be sovereign, me or my God.

Lord You are delightful to a ravaged world.  Bring us judgment so that we may enter Your rest.  King Jesus, we await You.  Amen.

Again they shall plant on the hills of Samaria, worshiping God and walking in fellowship with Him.  They were meant for that land.  They were given the land by the God, A Jealous God who loves His children and made them promises that were not dismissed by their wickedness.  He is the Righteous One and we are not, but through abiding in Him and He in us we may be accounted righteous.  These people will not perish even if they be pursued throughout the ages to come.  They were designed to be His inheritance and cannot totally fall for He will intervene.  When will His enemies understand their abuses are temporary for the Lord will smile again upon the Nation of Israel as if He had never had them disbursed to the four winds, or haunted by the sword.  Their trial was meant to glorify God as He delivers them when “all” else fails.

Jesus is coming, not as the giver of peace, to be mocked and tortured by the unrighteous for being innocent, pure and speaking unadulterated Truth.  He is come this time to bring Judgment with the seven stars in His Hand and the two edged sword of God’s Word upon His tongue.  Nothing can stand against truth, it severs, it cuts, it binds and it throws off chain of slavery to false gods, even though angels they be.  Christ is King and they know it, yet they have for a time convinced man of a falsehood.  That Glorious Day after many have suffered for their faith He will come and make it right.  The Earth shall fall at the Hand of the Potter, once again shaped by the image of His Palm and creative thought in His Mind.  I cannot fathom so intricate a task, I cannot understand the rhyme or reason for grace, judgment, the fall or my pride, but He Knows.  There is something built into these things called grace and glory and they are among the great and mighty things we have not yet known.

I look to today and see them weeping inside their hearts, tears running the walls of their self made cells.  Afraid of everything, yes even the light, for they know not the power and sanctification of forgiveness when washed clean by the Precious Blood of Jesus.  It took away the sins of the world, why then do we cling to them so.  Afraid to live free, having grown used to the shackles wrought in our own pursuit of fools gold and moissanite daydreams.  They flock to fear and avoid the waiting arms of Love, no tragedy is greater than the stubbornness of Man.

Don’t let us imprison ourselves any longer Father.  I pray that they be set free of these prisons named deception, mockery, foolishness and pride.  The enemy plays his role perfectly, I shall not mock him for I am but a man and I have no understanding of such things.  This I know, that You saw the need to step down from on High, to pronounce him defeated, to strip him of his authority over believers and to make clear Your intention to Judge him alongside mankind.  I do not know if he was necessary Lord, but as Your Word says that all serve the Lord our God then I must imagine in some way he too serves Your purpose.  If it be Your Will Father then we shall see him rebuked.  Lord show me how to save even one of these from going to eternal separation from You.  Make it so there is nothing more important in my life than saving them from that eternity.  Please allow me to bring Glory to your name and forget my own.

We all feel it even those who do not know You, Father.  They see that something has shifted, the season’s change nears, the denouement arrives.   Some rearrange the furnishings but they cannot seem to find comfort, peace, courage or strength.  Their legs buckle at the mention of possibility and they scurry for one last sip, bite or smoke.  Nothing soothes, nothing cools, nothing brings relief to the itch, pain or twinge.  Something is dis-aligned, as if light is no longer straight and water no longer quenches thirst.  We all see that something is coming, I know that the timing will be Divinely, Righteous and Perfect.  For Your Patience Has been a gift we cannot comprehend, but nonetheless we marvel at Your Majesty and Truth.  Praise God in All His Glory.  Jesus the Name Above All Names.

It does not matter whose fault it is that we have arrived to this present circumstance.  It is irrelevant, the obstacles, proponents or objectors to this or that philosophy.  What matters is that the rule of Constitutional Democracy is re-established in this Nation.  Our greatest failure is that we declined to remember the warnings of our first President, the honorable George Washington and have gotten away from the Good Word of God as our Moral Compass.  A man does not have to believe in God in order to believe in the principles on which this nation was founded and prospered.  A man must commit to the ideal by which those principles guide us down a road of common care, support and selflessness in order for this nation to return to “greatness”.  Just as De Tocqueville warned, we have ceased being good and thus we have ceased being great.

We cannot continue to travel a path that ignores our blessings from God as “one” of the possibilities for our prosperity.  I get it that many of my fellow citizens wish to free themselves from the obligation placed upon humankind by God’s Word of choice and judgment.  I understand that the evolutionists must justify their philosophy by denying the existence of God and forcing that denial upon the rest of humanity.  To them if there is any other explanation for the creation of man other than shear chance it means that they will inevitably have to admit that God is in charge and that we are all going to have to face that final judgment in the eyes of a righteous God.  That is an end that most of humanity fears like the plague.  However their denial of God as “one” possibility for our national blessings has produced a spectrum of negative results that we can no longer ignore.  The consequences of getting away from God’s Law as a mirror to guide our national identity and behavior has produced a population of entitled, self-righteous, apathetic citizens who operate by self-rules and ethical moralities that do nothing to protect the common good.  A man may live free until in exercising his freedom he brings harm upon the nation to which he owes that freedom.

We must have a solid foundation and national ideal by which we temper and accept the differing opinions, beliefs and philosophies of our fellow citizens.  That set of principles is the “The Ten Commandments” given to Moses by God by which all humanity may judge their own actions to find a consistent framework by which to live a “good” life.  My personal belief that God should be praised and obeyed as He is the only God is not relevant to our national discussion.  Men are free in this nation to make their own choices upon which to believe, however they are not free to follow their own designed set of moral principles if those principles are detrimental to the continued well-being of this once great nation.  There is no other set of principles by which a nation may guide them that produces the greatest good, camaraderie and unity then the Ten Commandments.  It is just plain “smart” to follow them as our compass.  The detriment and folly of following other lamp posts has been proven.  The time of experiment has ended.  We must return to what worked for us in the beginning.

Stop the assault upon the Constitution.  Stop the assault upon the character of God and goodness and righteousness of His Word as a beacon for those seeking a good life.  We have strayed from  the principles that brought this nation global prosperity.  This President, the members of the Legislature and the Judiciary cannot consider themselves above the Will of the People to do so will foster our current decline and foster our eventual national implosion or destruction.  Please recognize the signs, warnings and mounting consequences of our inaction and continued folly.  Return “common sense” to its position of authority and allow once again our children to be taught the righteous principles of God as one possibility of their creation.  To deny them the teaching to which we owe our prosperity is to guarantee the incompleteness of their problem solving capacity and critical thinking.  We must know the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth in order to make continued good judgment.  Deprive our children no longer of the entire story, so that they may make rational judgments and choices to include choosing to follow the wisdom of God’s Law.  Let them know the entire history of the nation built upon the ideals of freedom that came from a belief in the endowments to all men granted by their Creator.

What is hope for you?  Are you hoping upon the next job, a new child for you and your spouse or maybe a little time away from the hubbub and wave after wave of overwhelming circumstance?  Do you hope that the world will right itself, that somehow a group of right-thinking leaders will come together with wisdom and produce some planning that when executed will allow us to live in relative harmony?  Are you praying that God comes or are you hoping that this generation will pass away before Prophecy’s judgment comes to pass?  Are you setting yourself up to face the coming rage that we all see is mounting within the race of man?

What is hope for you?  What lay below the surface of your belief?  When you dig what do you find in the garden of your own life?  Not only what is growing there but what is in the soil, and what holds up the firmament, the foundation upon which you have planted the seeds of this life?  What have you sown?  What do you hope to bring in at harvest?  Will it be fine grain, fruits and legumes that refresh to body, mind a spirit?  We all know that the composition of the soil and the purity of the water dictates what will grow and the health of that growth.  In each Christian’s life the water should be pure, having come from the fountain of the living waters, unless perhaps having been tainted by the words and doings of false teachers.  But what about the soil?  Is it laden with heavy metals, carcinogens, garbage and sewage?  Is it too full of rock so that there is no earth by which to take deep root?

What is hope for you?  Do you pray to stand on the day of battle, armored in the festoons of God’s protection, singing Hallelujah in the face of coming storm?  Do you dread all the fear and societal decay, paralyzed into cutting out what little fun you can have, sequestering your heart, your treasure and your love to the few and not the many?  What is it that you look forward to and what will you do when challenged by the enemy we all know has lurked beyond the edge of light?  How will you deal with the powers and principalities, prepared for millenia, waiting with our eternity in balance?

Hope for me is “belief in things not yet seen”, “things which must quickly come to pass” and in the multitude of promises given us by our Righteous King.  None of these depend upon me, which is probably my greatest hope and relief.  I prepare my way with knowledge of God’s Word of Prophecy, arming myself with wisdom, faith, truth, peace, love and salvation, knowing fully that I will make it through the fires and raging seas.  I hope in the soil that God has given at the center of my life and the dirt in to which I have sown the seed of God’s Word so that others may bring in their own vibrant crops.  I hope that the Word’s of encouragement I have spoken to Brothers, Sisters and to the Lost have brought them into relationship with Christ where they may find comfort, peace and strength.  I hope upon a God who has never failed, never lied and never left me standing alone on the field of battle or victory.

I trust in the hope of Christ the King, believing in His Will and that He has already overcome this world and “All” God’s enemies.  I hope to sit with Him and talk about the things I currently do not know and the work He has planned for me in eternity.  I hope upon my choice of this life which made me a witness to what is coming as we head into the next life.  Praise You Lord God.  There is no other hope but You.  Amen.

The hearts of men have grown cold.  Love does not dominate any conversation, rhetoric rules in this secular society where it is illegal to teach children of their Maker.  They ramble wondering whose argument more effective forgetting that the one option they refuse to look upon is the answer to the dilemma.  The fact is that we have lost our moral compass in the nation and we wonder around on ground without a moral foundation based upon things like; goodness, righteousness, justice, faith, peace, love and truth.  The one thing that may save us is the only thing upon which we refuse to reflect.  Until we have a true committed desire to solve the problems, requiring an open minded review of all the causes, effects and potential solutions then we are doomed to follow paths dictated by intellectuals.

God is the only way to enlightenment, faith, truth and everlasting life.  There is no other road by which I may reach heaven except through faith and belief in the Lord Jesus Christ.  So simple it took only two sentences to explain the entire truth.  Unlike the laws men currently write that need thousands of pages through which legislators hope to “justify” their wisdom, even when they knowingly doubt their own resolution.  Faith in God does not require convincing argument or flowery speech, it requires a “heart” knowledge that God is our Creator and that He made the rules for His universe into which we were sown for His purpose.  Accepting that resolves a lot but it requires humility and understanding, the humility to understand that we are just players in His Plan.  That frightens, angers and paralyzes those who would have it defined any other way.

I do not wish to be in charge.  I am a sinner, probably as bad or worse than any other.  Left to  my own judgment, direction and desire I would make everyone around me stumble and make a mess of my life through pursuit of my own foolish agenda.  Sure I trust myself, I trust myself to do the wrong thing unless of course I exercise the only wisdom I possess and rely upon the Lord Jesus Christ and His Holy Spirit to give me discernment and direction.  See I am a fool just as any other it is just that I am a graduated fool who understands that doing foolish things brings me pain, discomfort, discipline and poverty.  Maybe that makes me no longer a fool, but no matter what the label I still “know” in my head and heart that following Jesus and the Word of God’s Bible is the best method by which to live this life and assure a place in eternity, seated at the foot of God’s throne.

Don’t try to convince me of your intelligentsia, utopia or social theorem perfectas, because the divining of man will always by nature be at “most” second best.  The number of man is 6 and the number of God is 7.  There is a long way in between them, an infinite amount of points according to Aristotle.  We can never reach the perfection of God to which pride finds us driven.  He came to us to “Reveal” His Glory and Love for the Earth in His plan of redemption for the sins of all mankind.  There is no greater story.  No other way to Glory.  The Lord Jesus Christ, deserving of my praise.  Amen

You told us to get in the boat and that we were going to the other side, then You slept.  At peace we watched You wondering how you could be comfortable in such cramped spaces.  Instead of taking lesson from Your slumber we became concerned with self.  Self being a responsive man he must always obey the circumstances and is limited to react to current stimuli.  But didn’t You say that we were going to the other side?  Holy Spirit I see the message for Christians that this life is the lake and You told us not to pay attention to the storms but to keep our eyes upon You.  Give me that kind of attentive faith Lord.  Such a faith where I would rather watch over my sleeping Creator in peace then be concerned with the storms and swelling waves of life.

Jesus, none of us can say that You don’t understand our travails.  You have seen the wicked and the good plodding through life trying to obey their chosen directives.  I am no different than any other man in that I must go through this examination of life in order to reach the other side.  What makes me different is You.  This DNA signature You gave me that provides absolute certainty that I am special, unique, designed for a purpose which separates me from all other beings.  You loved me enough to die for me and give me the choice to be reacquainted with You and be sealed for eternity by Your Spirit.  You give me the hope necessary to keep my eyes set keenly upon You, and the knowledge that transcends the tragedies and trials of this lifetime.  You said that we are going to the other side and I believe You.  We are in the boat with God, what then can assail us.

Praise be to the Almighty God in the name of Jesus Christ the Righteous King.  Amen

Ezekiel 25:1

A Prophecy against Ammon.

25:8

A Prophecy against Moab

25:12

A Prophecy against Edom

25:15

A Prophecy against Philistia

26:1A Prophecy against Tyre

Does the average Christian know what these prophecies mean.  It brings me suffering to know in my heart that most of my Brothers and Sisters do not even know the peoples and geographies to which these Prophecies regard.  God does not forget the sins against His people.  It may seem that His enemies have somehow escaped retribution for acts in the past present and those to come, but the Lord demonstrates His lasting patience even now.  The day of judgment nears where everyone will receive the harvest of what has been sown in their lives.  The Lords enemies have been told what will occur and believe they shutter at the even the mention of the His Mighty Name.  That Name, that Glorious Name means more than any of us will know in this lifetime.  He is the one who holds the keys to Death and to Hades.  He is the one worthy to open the seals of judgment upon the Earth and the Heavens.  He alone will execute retribution for the atrocities perpetrated upon His children.  These Prophecies are meant to bring us faith, faith in a God who tells what is to come before it happens so that we may prepare and also know that He is God.

Let us for a moment reflect upon the meaning of these prophecies.  Ammon and Moab were born to Lot through his daughters.  They are ancient Kingdoms both roughly located within the boundaries of modern day Jordan, east of the Dead Sea.  The Ammonites and Moabites would not allow the Israelites to pass safely through their land during the Exodus and became consistent antagonists of Judah and Israel through the centuries to follow.  To these Lands now inhabited by the Philistines, Edomites, Arabs, Jordanians, Syrians, Lebanese and Egyptians the Lord states clearly that they will be dealt with according to their dealings with the Nation of Israel.  According to the Word in the Book of Ezekiel, they will know following God’s actions that He is the Lord, the Great I Am.

Praise be to God that He is unwavering, for this is the same reliance every Christian must carry when confronted with salvation.  We are saved simply for our belief in His Judgment, Promise, Redemption, Mercy and Grace.  Just as Abraham was counted righteous by his belief, we are righteous solely by the blood of the Lamb in which we store our faith.  I do now wish to see anyone judged, but the Lord is Righteous, Just and True and must carry out the judgment which He promised beforehand shall imminently come to pass.  I cannot love what the Father hates, and the sins against His people will incur His Righteous Wrath.  That we can be sure of and as Christians we should these Prophecies as written in Ezekiel, Isaiah and many other books of the Prophets of God.  Thank You Lord for Your Mighty Word.  Please give us a hunger to store it within our hearts.  Praise King Jesus.

It matters what you think is real.  Just because I see it differently doesn’t make you wrong.  However, when two have conflict and they go to the Word and one person’s view is confirmed to be consistent with God’s perspective, that should resolve the issue.  Quibbles, angers, frustrations and lingering differences of opinion are footholds for the enemy upon which to construct walls between the best of friends and family.  These surfaces should be kept clean of conflict between saints.  Our lives have been washed clean of sin through grace, we should not then think it okay to hold the sins of others hostage against them for posterity.  Where there is festering anger or resentment their will be no fresh growth until that old stuff is cleared away.

I cannot tell you that I will never again offend, anger or frustrate you.  In fact the truth would require me to tell you the opposite.  I am a sinner saved only by the planned grace of God which forgave me of my original sin and continues to sanctify as I subject myself to the Potter’s masterful hand.  I truly wish that I could convincingly proclaim to all those that I love that I will never again dishearten, upset or anger them, but that is not the truth, because I know that I will.  Not by choice, but by mistake, clumsiness or just plain imperfect humanness.  I will however tell you that I will always apologize and try to make amends and the necessary changes to not hurting you in that way again.  That is all that I am capable of promising, except that I will not give up on you even though you hurt me.

Lord, I wish that I could be made whole now and never hurt those I truly care about.  If it is your will, could you please grant my wish to be as kind, honest and careful with their feelings as is humanly possible.  And if it is not humanly possible can Your Holy Spirit grant me the measure beyond my own capacity to make sure that I make no offense, especially to those whom I love.  I am sorry for my displeasing behavior, I know that You have been at work inside me to rid me of these defects and for that patient and kind work I am so thankful.  Please ask them to be patient with me Lord.  I mean well but the little wisdom You gave me makes it painfully evident that even the well intentioned can harm those around them in the process or attempt of doing good.  Forgive me Lord and let me forgive them when they trespass my boundaries.  Let me forget the betrayals and remember the well wishes.  Grant us peace Lord.  We love You will all our hearts.

One thing is constant in this world.  There is only one person who doesn’t change, doesn’t lie, doesn’t renege on promises, won’t leave, won’t run, won’t turn away even when you have violated His conscience.  If you chose the right building spot for the only house that you would ever build, the only place that your family would ever call “home” you would choose to build upon the bedrock.  You would choose the surface that would not be moved, swayed, liquified, flooded or shattered, you would build upon granite.  When all else fails you, your money, your friends, your health, job, time, self-esteem, character and skill, you would want one thing that remains when all else fades.  There is no one or no thing in this world that you can put “all” confidence, faith and trust upon besides the Lord God Almighty, found when you call upon Jesus Christ.

Go ahead, ask people what they think about absolute truth or one foundational constant in this world and you will hear a broad spectrum of response.  Answers like, money, education, religion, family, wind and yes even dogs, but each answer will be coupled with an insecure laugh.  As if the comedy somehow makes their tentative position amenable.  People don’t like being insecure, they want to have something that will not waver upon which to erect their spiritual home and to which they may attach their spiritual confidence.  The unfortunate thing is that they have been spiritually malnourished, having been fed an unfulfilled diet of empty promises or they were never told the truth about God.  It is absolute irony that the solemnity and safety they so desperately crave stands waiting for their acceptance, yet they have been convinced that He either doesn’t exist or that to acquiesce to His sovereignty will somehow take the fun out of life.  Neither of these options holds any resemblance to truth.  They are both perpetrated or orchestrated lies to deny people satisfaction of the greatest craving in their hearts, a relationship with their creator.

The Lord God always comes through.  He never promises anything He doesn’t give, including when He tells us we will have troubles in this world, especially because we serve Him.  His truth is consistent, verifiable, measurable and reliable and what is better it can be taken on faith because of His credibility.  He will never mislead you, never deceive you and never betray you, nor will He ever make a fool out of you for your allegiance to His name.  He will never leave you alone in your sin, festering, rotting, secluding, hiding and harming yourself if you are His child, for He is the Good Shepherd, who will leave the ninety-nine to go and find that lost lamb.  There is nothing in this world worth entrusting my life, but God.  When all else fails and fades He will still be there with arms open wide to receive us.  In Christ I entrust my spirit to be hidden where only God can see.  Amen.

How do you know that He is Lord?  Was it a feeling, a sign, a willingness to accept the explanations handed down through history, telling of a Glorious God?  Did He show you mercy, maybe rescue from bondage or bad life experiences, showing you another way to live, a righteous path, an abundant life, filled with real people, smiles and if you were lucky, wisdom?  Did you see His face reflected by the muddy waters as they tortured a family for refusing to forsake Him?  Or have you yet to really know Him, hoping that the things you’ve heard and seen are true, that He really is the One True God?

What brings you to the Lord’s table, what makes you wait on His whisper at the foot of His Throne?  Is it knowledge of His Promises and reassurance through His Word and Hope firmly set in belief that He will do whatever He said that He would?  Do you go to a group of worshipers to find song, good feeling and food, rejoicing in a brief respite from the World’s weightiness?  Was there a cute guy there, you hoped to know, and maybe just maybe have one of those relationships where it is not all about money, cars and your job?  How were you introduced to Jesus, that polarizing authority, who separates man in to two groups, just by the mention of His name?  Did you meet Him in desperation or quiet reflection asking Him for forgiveness, redemption and acceptance?  Was it one of those humbling episodes where you realized that you couldn’t do it yourself and needed someone’s help to make it through this life on your way to the next?  Were there tears, first of passionate shame, agony and then quiet rejoicing, as the damn of your self-resolve gave way?  Or are you hopeful of that grand moment where you too can know surrender?

Has He created in you someone brand new?  A creature that you barely recognize, sharing very little resemblance to the man or woman you once were.  Has the Spirit of God indwelt you, transforming you internally, and those changes eventually so noticeable that they are visible on the surface of your character and life?  Do you feel drawn to His Word, not just searching for some unknown wisdom, but to spend time with the one who loves you more than any other?  Just to know Him, to see Him and perchance hear the brief quiet whispers sung to your heart?  Or are you seeking some vision, some emotional moment where the hair on your arms stands up?  Do the thoughts of miracles plague you?  Are you waiting to believe, held back by the doubt, praying desperately for the supernatural evidence that so many ponder and lack?  What if the only sign He ever shows is the moment He returns and looks in to each of our eyes, knowing who belongs to Him?

What do you cling to?  What in this life, whether material or relation provides the surety of fulfillment, purpose and absolute love?  Does anyone know everything about you and still claim you as their own?  Do the fruits of your labor sustain you, without decay, to refresh you when all your time, energy and food has gone?  What is it that upon which you depend?  What are you holding out for, maybe there is something greater than the God who upholds creation?  It all just seems a bit fragile to me, as if you are praying for second best, absolutely certain that you can never be at the head of the pack.  As for me I want God.  I know that I don’t deserve what He offers but I will accept with open arms, mind and heart, begging Him to show me that which I still lack.  There is nothing else on which to place my faith but the God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob, through Jesus Christ.  In Him I will place my trust, because He trusted me enough to offer me a way out of my self prescribed damnation and marriage to my sin.  That is good enough for me.  Jesus be praised for All His Glory.