I am a child, stepping away from my Father briefly testing my legs, a bit wobbly but able to stand. He gives me that confidence to overcome fear, looking back I see that He is there with arms extended waiting to catch me when I’ve fallen. Just let me lose sight of Him for a moment and that panic ensues, where I either run to find Him or learn to depend upon my own abilities to walk through this life. Where is that sweet spot of dependence upon God while maintaining a fair level of confidence in self? Wow that is a difficult question.
We know that God wants us to mature, grow in faith and learn adult methods for dealing with problems, conflict, relationships and finances. I do not believe that He ever wanted us to stop depending upon Him. His Word is clear on relying upon Him instead of our own understanding, seeking shelter, peace and sustenance under His mighty outstretched wings. How do you find that balance where each step may be taken upon your own volition but maintaining a clear line of sight upon Jesus to guide, correct and discipline each of your actions? I think this is each Man’s struggle in this world, and that God purposely constructed it for that reasoning. For each day I am tempted to follow my own or some other voice’s direction, thinking haphazardly that I have mastered this life, but with self-reliance comes accountability for misstep. Can I blame God one iota if in fact I have walked foolishly onto the mezzanine of Hades?
The enemy has been terribly effective in convincing humans that they only need the things of this world to fulfill their yearnings. Our understanding of Biblical Doctrine is minimal, no wonder take such egregious reactive footfalls when confronted with conflict, we possess not the wisdom and authority to reason appropriately. The closer that I get to God the closer I want to be to God. It is falsehood that a man who depends on God is weak, this is travesty. For mankind has been sold a bundle of lies vended by the father of lies. Every man that I know who has surrendered to Jesus and is fully dependent on the Holy Spirit’s direction to bring Glory to God possesses a strength incomprehensible to misguided man. They are children looking into nuclear physics not understanding the complexity of its architecture. Things are not always what they appear or as the vendor of worldly fulfillment depicts them. There are greater things than what may be achieved in this life, but the belief and actions of this life dictate the access to that greater universe.
Father let me be fully dependent upon You for and in all things. Although I find confidence in my ability to stand against the wiles of the enemy let me never forget what would happen if You took Your hand of blessing from my head for even one moment. Let me draw ever closer to You, Your Word, Wisdom and Truth. Let folly fall away and foolish pride lose its claim upon my heart. I am Yours. Teach me, lead me and discipline me to Your Glory. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.