http://www.cbn.com/media/player/index.aspx?s=/Archive/News/Stakelbeck_Terror_112712_WS  We will not be humbled, think again.

Relied upon God and He took me there.  Dropped my pack in exhaustion at the foot of the rugged cross and He bore my burden then left me with peace in exchange.  Looked for old ways out or clever techniques to somehow stop the pain but the Lord stayed my mouth, and my feet.  Stand there, He said to me.  Feel it and remember how utterly unbearable it was at last examination.  Strong despite my self.  Weak enough to know that I could never do this alone.  You are my God.

Lord, failures seems to be my namesake.  Get up, fall down, get up, slip, go down again.  I know you would not allow me to lie there in defeat and I love that about You.  When I am spent, You are endless.  Father I will wait to see Your Hand, Your Path, Your Guidance.  And if I am to move then I pray that You give me speed and determination.  After all this is Your life that I have been allowed to live.  I am so thankful now that I don’t just spend time making a mess of it.  My goal of the furtherance of Your Coming Kingdom, is revealed a bit more each day.  You are my God.

When I count on me I am perpetrating deception sponsored by self.  It wants to say that it knows best, but history says otherwise.  Where I should be, for what should I strive, how should I spend the bulk of my time, with whom should I be aligned?  I don’t need these answers.  The questions are only pertinent when submitted through the humble inquiry of a man seeking guidance.  Otherwise these questions and the self-delivered answers are part and parcel of the same quest for self-fulfillment.  The Lord will provide answers and those answers alone have the power to fill me up.  Self actualization is a satan-inspired myth sold to humanity at large.  Nothing in this world can give me that realization of total life direction, where every ounce of spirit, spit, sweat and silver are expired in pursuance of a divinely designed purpose.  Nothing less is acceptable.  Please let me have no regrets when I first look into those Eyes.  All that is worthy about me came from You, please take it all.  You are my God.