My hands rattled the cage of time, my eyes swelled with tears knowing that I would be trapped inside for ever holding no inkling of hope.  My dreams had been fulfilled, my mind’s eye appeased, I lived and savored momentary conquests and prayed they linger.  The money I made bought me shade, and rest and a broader waistline, but never lasted past the point of gluttony or hangover.  I had achieved Man’s desire, wealth, prestige, fashion, fancy and maintained my polished pride, even at the sake of losing every worthy person I loved.  Yes, I had lived to the fullest, fast lane-success available to man.  Peeling the skin from my fingertips as I grasped for the last magic, elixir drops drying into the concrete under the noonish sun.  Sitting on a curb, I leaned back closed my eyes and prayed that somehow today it would  end.  How could I possibly be begging God to take away something to which I had dedicated my entire existence, time and talent?  Can time be truly wasted if lessons are learned or does regret somehow ruin victory?  All I know is that I was set free and there is nothing that could ever convince me to return to such foolhardy pursuit.

What is time to us?  Do you wish for days to go slower or faster and what does that say about living in this precious moment?  Father I don’t know when you will return to gather your Church.  I do not know if I shall be here or passed beyond the gateway to eternity.  I do not know what awaits me in glory.  I only know that You are at the end of this road and that is enough for me.  Yes, I continue to get this wrong because being right is not so important.  Just being is enough, being and believing in the one thing that is pure, holy, great and untarnished by tyrannical time.  Father let me depend not on my understanding, direct me to the words that I must use today, the wisdom I must demonstrate today to overcome the obstacles that face me today.  Let me not agonize over yesterday or obsess on tomorrow.  Breathe with me Father.  Let my heart be at peace in service, love and prayer.  In Your Holy Name King Jesus I pray this day I have been freely given.  Amen.