Evaluating my behavior toward God and the world I give myself mixed review.  On the one hand I surrender my day to Him, but on the other I spend my time taking it back piece by piece.  My sin and unforgiveness, limit my potential relationship and fellowship with the Lord.  I know this yet I still hold grudges and continue to commit the same infractions born by habit, selfishness and a rebellious heart.  My study, prayer and performance in the word bring me closer to Him and give me discernment, clarity and efficacy for the Kingdom.  I dedicate myself to studying the word, going to the Lord in intercessory prayer and obeying His commands through right-action, yet I still find other issues toward which I dedicate my first fruits that should be reserved for God.  I fully relate to Paul’s statement about knowing the right thing and how frustrating it is when I still repeatedly do what is wrong.  My failures teach me more than my successes.  Through this process I am given daily opportunity to re-dedicate myself to serving the Lord and choosing to put aside self and other idle influences.  I make the choice and then He makes the change.  Praise Jesus Amen.