I continue to try and fail, yet God still loves me.  Although I keep doing it wrong, I still feel His hand in everything that I do.  Such an amazing idea.  How do we become something more than just the efforts of an inadequate man, the ramblings of a self righteous sinner or the not so comical attempts of this blind man trying to describe the masterpiece in the portrait of Messiah?  Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen Hebrews 11.1 (KJV).

I cannot do anything, but I hope to.  I cannot make a difference, but I pray that the Lord allows me to make one.  I pray for the miraculous to occur for people and yet I know that if it were dependent upon my successful performance such hope would be foolish.  I have to believe that He will somehow make a difference through my in-poetic preaching, my imperfect delivery of His word or that somehow a kernel of my testimony will reach someone.  I cannot save anyone, but in my heart of hearts I wish that something I say or something I do for someone helps them seek the Lord in all of His love, power and glory and consequently find their way to salvation.  In effect, although I keep doing it wrong there must be some smidgen of evidence for God in my wanting to do the right thing and believing that somehow He will find His way through my clumsiness.

And they overcame him by the Blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death. Revelation 12:11 (KJV)  What does this mean to you?  Is it open for interpretation or is it clear?   The “they” that this passage is referring to in the text is obviously Israel in their coming flight and persecution from “him” the “red dragon” (satan, the Lord Jesus rebuke him).  But don’t we all feel like this passage refers to us personally?  Am I not the an over-comer by the Blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony?  Don’t the words that I proclaim, about God’s Righteous Glory, somehow give me victory over the enemy?  Doesn’t the power of His sacrifice somehow give me the “upper hand” in this battle to rise above the attempts of the accuser of the brethren?  Isn’t this about everyone who believes in and proclaims the gospel of Jesus Christ our Lord?  Isn’t God’s word amazing in depth and relevance?

Father, forgive my miserable attempts.  I continue to fall short of Your Glory and the objectives You have set before me.  Please grant me pardon when I bring shame to Your perfection.  Forgive me my blasphemy, my misrepresentation, my poor analogy and my weak patience, love and understanding in sight of my brother.  Please make right what I seem only capable of doing incorrectly.  I am amazed that You chose me at all, but I am so joyously, grateful that You did.  I choose You Lord.  I will continue to seek You with all my heart, mind and soul, like I seek no other.  You are my Creator, my King, my savior and my love.  May I overcome the enemy through Your Blood and the words of my testimony.  May I not love my life even unto death.  May I continue to demonstrate faith through the substance of my hope in the things not yet seen.  I believe in Your power, glory and might and in Your eternal plan of salvation for all mankind.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.