How many times have I tried to manipulate the Lord?  How fruitless my attempts to pull the wool over the eyes of the Lord.  Twisting, turning, concealing, running, hiding, misdirection all the moves of an unrepentant man desperate to escape the reality of eventual, righteous and inevitable judgment.  My actions, SEEN BY GOD reflect upon Him as I have accepted the position of Holy ambassador.  How can I entertain even the thought of any employer, father or king accepting disgraceful performance/behavior on the part of a person charged with the responsibility of representation and relationship building?  Forgive my foolishness, indecision and frivolous behavior.  Like an employee stealing from the till in full view of digital cameras I only deceive myself in believing I am somehow getting away with something.  Somehow, something, somewhere, these are indefinite adverbs reflecting uncertainty.  Is that really where I stand with the Lord, uncertain of His Holiness, uncertain of Whom I serve, uncertain of His judgment?  Lord, I am amazed you even consider me worthy of breathing.  Thank You that it is Your righteous, holiness, mercy and grace on which I depend and not my own.  Praise Jesus.